Tuesday, January 15, 2013

By Way of Attempted Explication.

Dog Poet Transmitting.......

May your noses always be cold and wet.

Greetings Friends and welcome to the halls of Origami. I seem to have run afoul of certain sensibilities over the course of the last week in my postings here and there. I just got an email from someone who was upset with me because they said I was fearful. This was something I was unaware of. I admit to confusion, some perplexity and uncertainty ...but fear is not something I recall dealing with and it certainly doesn't fit my modus operandi at any time around these locations. In fact, I would say that the degree of fearlessness I display borders on the foolhardy, lacking at times all sense of self preservation. I've wanted to think and do believe that God protects me and it certainly appears to be true. However, at times one's faith can be severely tested and I am no more immune to that than anyone else.

There's seems to be a perception among some of the readers that I am their property. They have some kind of investment in me and when I don't perform according to their expectations that I have not measured up to my ordained responsibility to them. How I came to be responsible to them is something I missed along the way. Perhaps I wasn't paying attention. Possibly I was busy with something else and this contractual obligation of mine went by without my noticing it. I am supposed to be possessed of some kind of marvelous, unwavering consistency that never varies. That's fine in the movies and comic books but it doesn't translate into real life; whatever that is.

There are some readers who have been good to me here, bought my books, helped me out on occasion, been there for me in a private fashion. You know who you are and I'm not going to single you out to the exclusion of others. I don't think that would be fair. However, the totality of them is a good deal less than 1% of the readership. The people that are giving me grief about not meeting their expectations aren't even regular correspondents; not people I hear from with any regularity. I don’t really know what to say to them. I'm not a commodities future or a hedge fund.

My former life, such as I have known it is in a state of massive transformation. Somehow, I got the idea that coming to India was going to be some kind of a positive transitioning. No one who comes here has any real idea of what went down and it's over in any case. It was just one of those initiatory phases that can happen anywhere. I've learned from the experience and put it behind me but I can't put behind me how it made me feel. I don't operate like that anyway. I study the impact of things on me and look to see what the lesson is. I can't grow if I just dismiss everything that happens and act like nothing happened.

I've lived with the same woman for going on 14 years now. Though we are very good friends and share a lot of things in common, there are all kinds of things we do not share in common. I've never integrated that well into the German culture. We do not share the same friends. A number of her friends were very upset that we got together and in most cases this is because they wanted to be with her and she picked me. She doesn't believe in God; given what little or more a lot of you know about my life, you can imagine how this plays out on occasion, especially considering some of the supernatural occurrences. She sees the commentary provided by the readers and it mystifies her because she does not share in the resonance that goes on here. The truth of the matter here and I know whereof I speak, is that we were put together for karmic reasons. Some of you know how we met and this is endemic of many another event that has occurred in my life.

Now the cosmos has seen fit to change this dynamic. That's been in flux for awhile now and the status of it comes and goes but sooner or later it will change in a definite way and I will be on my own and feeling like I am in a Thomas Cole painting. I'm of a particular age, although, unless I am being decadent I don't look like it and people often miss my actual age by a lot, It really comes down to the way one moves and acts according to their animating principle. Still, I don't have a job, I live in a foreign country, I could well be in the wind come summer and have no idea where and the place that I thought was going to provide me answers, has provided me nothing but questions. I think I am permitted a certain amount of WTF? I think I am permitted a period of internal questioning and wonderment.

People say all kinds of nice things to and about me. It is apparent that a lot of people are getting something out of this experiment that I am. I don't know how much I am getting out of it, except for the opportunity to be of service and I have tried to perform in that manner, free of charge, diligently, day after day, week after week, month after month and year after year. I haven't asked for anything. I've been through, I don't know how many personal crises, on the parts of different readers, through emails and phone conversations and so on and so forth. I've tried to be there every single time.

I'm not superman. I'm not enlightened, not in any complete and total way. I'm not stable and well adjusted. I'm not prosperous and independent. I've never amassed any assets and I don't own anything but the tools of my trade. I have maybe a couple of thousand Euro to my name, if I congregate it all together. That's the totality of all my worldly goods. Sure, that has never been my intention but I always thought things were moving in a certain direction, where I might finally have a season of ease, or at least know where I was going to be for some period of time.

I'm not whining or complaining here. I'm just laying out some particulars, so that the reader might see how things have been hitting me lately and they have been hitting me a certain way internally. You have to keep something in mind about me and that is that because of the nature of my work there are some number of entrenched and diabolical forces that bear no love for me and they attack me on certain levels at certain times. Usually these attacks take place in my waking zone and I handle them as well as I can and I usually do handle them, with the help of my invisible friends. They usually do not come after me when I am sleeping or attempting to but that happened recently and here is the interesting thing. At the same time this was happening to me, it happened to Susanne, the very same thing with the very same components. There can be nothing coincidental about this. Now it has stopped and for that I am grateful but... the totality of all of these things is wearying and it puts me in a frame of mind that I have to deal with. I could pretend that none of it is happening but that is no different than being in a state of denial.

Every trip I have taken recently has turned out badly in one way or another; Mexico, UK, Romania and now here, although this could still materialize into something different and I hold to that possibility. Some readers are coming to visit soon and maybe that contains elements that will have an effect on my presence here. Several people told me to go home. Susanne told me I should come home. I can't see my way to doing that when people have paid good money to come and see me so, I'm pretty much here for another month to six weeks at least. I can manage that, staying under the radar and just working on my book and putting up posts every day. I've got a lot I can occupy myself with. I don't have to be running all over the landscape, with the environment pinging off of my senses and rattling my brain cage (grin).

I'm not in some state of burgeoning crisis. I'm just very thoughtful and not sure of what anything means but that is simply the way it is. It's going to explain itself or it's not going to explain itself. I don't get the sense that I am in any kind of danger and even when it looked like things might spiral into a degree of unpleasantness, they never did. Things merely moved from one atmosphere into another. I'm just in one of those places where I am assessing everything and not knowing what awaits me at some further reach and it's not something I should be over focusing on but you know how the mind works and sometimes that is just how it goes. Usually I have some sort of anchored awareness but my anchors are in question now and it's probably why I am getting all these weird HD dreams and why, until recently, I couldn't sleep at all. The power of this mountain and this location has something to do with it but that seems to have backed off too for the moment.

So I ask you to bear with me and not place all these impossible expectations on me. I am very resilient and have a capacity to pass through powerful weather conditions. If the forces I deal with are real, they will prove out in terms of need and necessity. I have to go with that. Don't make demands on me when I'm not on your dime and when you are in fact on my dime. It would please me greatly if I could expect this. You want to have a positive effect on my situation, pray for me. Thank you.


Love,


visible


End Transmission.......

Visible sings: The eponymous Les Visible Music Album♫ Peace (unplugged) ♫
A studio version of 'Peace' is track no. 4 of 10 on Visible's eponymous 'Les Visible' Music Album
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The eponymous Les Visible Music Album

58 comments:

Clarity said...

I can relate to this...
I'm just very thoughtful and not sure of what anything means but that is simply the way it is.

and this...
I'm just in one of those places where I am assessing everything and not knowing what awaits me at some further reach and it's not something I should be over focusing on...

Maybe it's the time we're in. I'm hoping that a lot of something good is right around the corner.

With gratitude,
~Clarity

est said...

-
i never went anywhere
people think they

come and go
it's understandable

but when you discover
what you really are

you will understand
we've never been apart
-

Erik said...

Heh Vis,

I feel you my friend, our circumstances are seemingly very similar (though at almost exact opposite sides of the globe ;)

I am glad that my lessons about "Rely on me" are seemingly not that 'harsh' (yet) as yours appear to be ...

Oh well, "persevere to endure" my dear friend and Godspeed to All

Erik

Erica said...

Hi Vis-So you're only human-as fallible as the rest of us-who'd have thought it?!
Like the rest of us,your principle task is to figure out your own dharma.
You owe nothing to anyone who drops in here-we can take onboard that which we find meaningful,and pass on whatever doesn't resonate with our particular psyche.
Not in a position to assist you materially-but sending my loving thoughts.

marilyn said...

ok, i'm praying but watch your back and your front...sending lots of love your way.

brokenbeat said...

Kudos to you, Vis, for your patience and perseverance.

Peace be with you,

John V.

Pope Shannogh said...

I personally thought we had a good time in Romania

Coruscant L'amore said...

It is curious huh how we think we might find a thing here or there... to go then looking for the thing here or there... and to come back empty handed. I guess empty handed is the wrong term, because in truth what was found was that there was nothing of substance in that thing one thought better of than the current circumstance. Sort of the grass is greener phrase comes to mind.


Knowing what isn't there, is just as important as knowing what is there. The two principles of all creation bear out that sort of cognitive realization of the "seed and void".

That said, I hope you are coping well with the new locale. I would desire that Father sees fit to continue his diligence in regards to your intentions and that that which you seek, may be found.

I find, for myself, finding the right thing tends to come from finding the right question to ask to get the right thing. Even then tho the answer comes in Fathers time and not my own, if at all. Time seems to play into the evolving self awareness, sorta like you can hear a thing a thousand times but not until the right Time was reached did that hearing trigger understanding and awareness. Thats a lesson in patience for myself. Maybe tomorrow, maybe not in this lifetime. I am here to learn who I AM and what I stand for, and I think I was drawn to read your blogs by mutual resonance for the Truth we both seek.

Take care Les, be safe and enjoy the experience.

Gene

Anaughty Mouser said...

Greetiyour questioning my friend. I hear your questioning loud and clear.

"I'm just very thoughtful and not sure of what anything means but that is simply the way it is."

I'm at the same place. I read somewhere we learn more when things go wrong than right. In that case you and I and many others who read here will soon be cusping genius :)

I'm glad to hear Susanne is waiting for you when you do decide it's time to return West. Every woman is a universe.

Peace and love

katz said...

I'm praying for you.
You will be alright.
Go home. Suzanne is right.
I have ESP.
Go home.
India is treacherous.

Anonymous said...

Breath!

Anonymous said...

Lord Visible, I was wondering if you ever question what your invisible friends tell you. You are in India right now, and it's not what you thought it was going to be. Yet you still believe that your invisible friends are on your side, and their word is sacrosanct. The technology exists, and has existed, for many years, to beam pretty much anything directly into one's head - even into one's field of vision while they are awake; and most especially, into one's dreamscape at night. Based on the resources available to me and my own past experiences, you are currently living in an area that is known to house serious mind-control technology - and plenty of bad guys are on the loose in those parts. From a person who has been through extremely similar shit to what you've been through in your life (including the "shared nightmares"), I would start questioning those "invisible friends" of yours hardcore, and starting right this second. Seems like they have pushed you into more than one situation wherein you discovered that things were not as advertised. The fact that your lady had the same "nightmare" that you had recently, is even more evidence that you are likely being targeted (both of you) by mind-control technology. So you might consider that. I was glad to read that you are probably heading back home in a few weeks. You are too trusting at times, I think, Lord V. So maybe (since you admittedly don't know anything), you would do well to start questioning everything - most especially the advice handed to you by invisible friends, who seem to continually push you into situations wherein the Promised Land remains as far away from you as a hawk is from the moon...

the gardener said...

Oh! dear man! I'm always praying for you to have the guidance and strength to continue on with your life's endeavors.

It was funny, as I was reading your words-the Fool card came bouncing in and out of my mind's field.

Hang in there Fool *grins* these are weird distorted even creepy feeling days right now.

Time of great shifts as you are experiencing in all ways. Like a scene from "Jaws" where the water is still on top and underneath the monster is coming and readying to turn it all into churning, bloody red commotion.

With my life, it is really something when a high of 8 degrees feels 'nice'. I attribute my feelings of being in a small boat on a sea which can go from calm to mad wild with no notice. I was being all POd about my pipes freezing up on me though I'd put much effort into protecting my water sources in intense cold, but... all it took was for the power to go out for five hours yesterday morning to show that regardless of efforts it will be as it will be when so much is out of our personal control efforts.

love you man,

the gardener

hahaha someone posted Golden Earring's "Twilight Zone" the other day and caused me to search out the old 80s original... what lyrics! can not believe I didn't notice them back then.

preacher said...

Dear Vis, I am mostly in my home where I now live for three years, alone, and I'm experiencing a lot of things you are going through lately.

I am not far from my loved ones as you are, but I haven't had the urge to see them. While in bed and resting everything is fine, but when I decide to stand up, physical and mental bad feelings overwhelm me. I think somethings changed in the world and the news I'm reading doesn't help either.
So its not just India I think in your case, but you already came to the same conclusion.
Thank you for sharing your feelings with us about your soulsearching there.

Concerning you and your soulmate having the same nightmare, I stumbled unto something today that could explain that:

When You Have the Right Vibe, It’s Not a Coincidence: Synchronicities, Energy Healing, and Other Strangeness in the Field

"Each field of meaning has a particular vibration to it, and objects, individuals, emotions, dreams, and events with similar vibrations will tend to resonate with one another and then co-occur. This is what creates synchronicities. In fact, various theories of quantum physics require the existence of synchronicities..."

P.S.
I have decided to stay alone a while longer, so it will be me who is being attacked and not again a loved one.

I wish you all the best!

missingarib said...

Vis,i found this quote which i offer as food for thought--.
Be not afeard; the isle is full of noises,
Sounds and sweet airs, that give delight and hurt not.
Sometimes a thousand twangling instruments
Will hum about mine ears, and sometime voices
That, if I then had waked after long sleep,
Will make me sleep again: and then, in dreaming,
The clouds methought would open and show riches
Ready to drop upon me that, when I waked,
I cried to dream again.
The Tempest, 3. 2

Staying focuses is a struggle and reading post from your heart and mind a comfort, a shield ,like seeking comfort by standing off the sidewalk beside a building to take shelter from the cold buffeting wind before striking out again back along the sidewalk to where ever we are intending.
be well and may you and I Vaya con dios

Anonymous said...

Vis;

Walk through the valley of the shadow of death and continue to fear no evil. Know that the Lord lights your way and power cannot exist without him. Know that an army of friends pray you arrive gloriously where your heart and mind direct you and your feet carry.

Amen

You are famous during this spin here. A man prophecized that 2 witnesses would preform the miracle of resurrection while witnessing in poverty for 3.5 years as street evangelists. One in a land like Sodom and one in a land like Egypt.

Brother Vis and Brother Nathaniel?

Would be an awesome gig to hold down for the Lord, right?

Continue fearless and undaunted as you have thus far and believe (biggest part) that I am with you in spirit and prayer.

Walking with the Lord,

g

dirtykid© said...

Could the Army of Zio-trolls have started their war against anti-Zionist bloggers already? Seems a bit soon, but maybe that's the source of this anger from non-regulars... Just a thought.

Kazz said...

Hi Vis,

I hear you brother. It has recently come to my attention that I have been contracting with monsters. I am deeply entrenched in some of these contracts which put my loved ones and me at their mercy. I have also come to understand that being in a contractual agreement with these people removes me from the divine because I cannot be a servant to the divine while I have others claiming they own me, and while I have contractual agreements it would seem that in accordance with divine law that is exactly what the situation is.

The realisation of this makes me feel like vomiting and has caused me many a sleepless night lately. I am in a huge spider web and the spider is ready to eat my loved ones and myself alive. My challenge is to free us before it is too late. Freedom, however, appears to be unachievable at the moment because what took a long time to get into takes time to get out of. This leaves me in a predicament where I am currently serving a master that I do not wish to serve and has me betraying the master I love. This realisation makes my entire body feel ill. I am suffocating from the grip that the devil’s minions have over me currently, and their claim that they have jurisdiction over me is challenging my sanity at every level. The knowledge that I have betrayed the divine, who I deeply love, has torn the very heart from my chest. I just wanted to share this with you Vis so you would know that you are not the only fish that is struggling on your journey, which entails swimming upstream against the flow, and which at the moment feels like a torrent.

I had a dream the other night that the little island I live on was hit by three consecutive waves, and by the time the third wave had receded I had lost everyone who was dear to me. I cannot describe the feeling of loss that washed over me. This dream was overwhelming and has pushed me on with an urgency I cannot explain. All I know is that whatever is going on appears to have been ramped up quite a bit. Perhaps this is what is affecting your realm also, who knows.

What others say is simply indicative of who they are, so please don’t feel downhearted that some people have unrealistic expectations of you. This is their gig and their problem Vis.
Although I am elated when you put up new posts I don’t get at all upset when you are otherwise disposed. I am simply gratefully for that which you share :o).

Luv Kazz

Anonymous said...

Need to find some where cheap,it's so easy to get ripped off in India,I know I have been there too,,tourist is easy money,,people have got to earn a living,,and like anywhere,there are all sorts of different people,,including people who rip you off,and because your a tourist you stand out like a soar thumb,,,,
Probably finding a chai shop where the locals go and drink tea would be the place where you will find the most honest of the people,sit there speak to the locals,,something may come along also the tea is cheap,,,,travelling with not much money is difficult
I have traveled lots of times,,I find the locals will always help and the tea shop is a wonderful place...
Been having girl problems myself past few weeks,,
That's why I haven't been around much,,,
Trying to sort out things with my x girlfriend,,,have given up with that though and now I can't help but love her,so I will let that be,,,..
Im sure when you get your bearings everything will be fine over in India mr visible,,,
You'll have
Great adventures and have wonderful story's

Respects neil


Thomas said...

You are added to my growing prayer list Peace to you my brother

Josey said...

Les,

Will pray.

BTW, Trying to read those letters and numbers to post, sometimes takes me 5 or 6 tries. Maybe it's just me.

Laura said...

Dear Vis ~

Some reader responses reflect the expectations that are held, and then there is the advice that is dispensed to you (grin). I return to the blogs, particularly Origami, for the sublime wisdom that is shared and the enrichment I feel from reading. It is so interesting to know of another's journey with and through the divine, and to read of the challenges faced, that mirror our own in some way. I am grateful to everyone that walks the talk and bears the truth, and is open to changing viewpoints in light of new experiences.

I may have said before that we often do not know what is happening or why and some of it can be downright uncomfortable, crazy and nonsensical, but when one is in the service of the divine, that divine will becomes the driver of one's life.

I wish for you your continued well being and the sustained feeling and experience that your invisible friends have always got your back.

With love, in grace ~
Laura

Arctic Fox said...

Recently I purchased your book, Spiritual Survival in a Temporal World. I definitely look forward to reading it when it arrives. I've been reading your blogs for over a year now and hadn't contributed anything yet... and decided I owe it to you to support you with some of what little "disposable income" I have.

Please brush off the small pack of yapping chihuahuas that nip at your ankles. You have no obligation to apologize so heavily to these hostile goons. We love you and your work, Visible.

Keep on, keepin' on.

tuba4 said...

When I first read of your pilgrimage to India, if I may call it that for lack of a better understanding, I thought, "oh goodie(ha!), now I can vicariously live this journey of yours along with the other souls who read your innate and intuitive thoughts and post comments here at your sites.
I instinctively believed that the Les who is really so much more would be visiting Shangri-La, having nonstop fun and constant joyous exhilaration, but as you indicated hasn't happened yet; this is real life, whatever that is.
And our envisioned reality is really only in our heads seeking the intention to become manifest.
I had come to the conclusion that was never a stumbling block for your interactions with the material, however, as with any massive transformation, the old precepts that got us this far are also evolving into more complicated algorithms that are simply just another one of those initiatory phases to put experience behind us.
Take the internal turmoil and transition it to an external explanation of the why of things beyond your control, and with the Divine ineffable, you and your invisible friends will materialize a continued greatness and a lasting effect on all who hear what you write.
We'll take the good with the bad, for that is the truth of reality in this dimension, and the balance will be in knowing the worse it gets, the better it will become. Peace, love, and understanding is only possible by a cosmic understanding that there is a God who desires all things good for everyone. We really love you Les, and our prayers for you will keep the wolves at bay!

Anonymous said...

For what it's worth, I was worried about my favorite blogger until this morning. You seemed to have lost that unique humor that I so love because ye are an old boy and true. But nay... And as for the gathering gloom we sensitives being clairvoyant are better prepared for the headon smashups. Here's to happier dreams and know that we love you. Me and my shadow anyway. The Chips

Eric said...

On ya Les!

I'm an infrequent poster but want to let you know that the sincerity and transparency with which you share your reality is the boon of which we partake.

Cheers and good health!

Regards,
Eric
Australia

Anonymous said...

Husbandry, siggh. Snow,, ugh.
If anyone sees the prettiest little flock of Pine Siskins somewhere between B.C. and Oregon, they love Sunflower Kernels ground up a few seconds in a Coffee Grinder. Birdies of Heaven. Gods Gifts revealed when they land on your Knee. Ha !
Ta Ta

Anonymous said...

Godspeed Les

L.L.O. said...

I'll say a prayer for ya Vis.

Mahalo,

-L.L.O.

Anonymous said...

Dear Visible,

"Still, I don't have a job, I live in a foreign country, I could well be in the wind come summer...."

As are we all my friend, except you know it and most of us don't. There but for the grace of God go any one of us.

"...and the place that I thought was going to provide me answers, has provided me nothing but questions."

My life summed up in one sentence!


"...I think I am permitted a certain amount of WTF? I think I am permitted a period of internal questioning and wonderment."

You most certainly are, my friend. I don't think a day goes by when I don't have a WTF? moment. So many of us readers do. You are in good company and you are loved, supported, prayed for daily and appreciated by so many.

I had an interesting thought yesterday. As I lay in bed thinking how little I understand or know what to do from moment to moment I got a picture in my head of a mixing bowl. In it was a some sugar and baking chocolate (the bitter kind.) Separate you could say the sugar was "good" and the bitter chocolate was "bad." But, when mixed together it all got good. I then saw a picture of the earth and little people. When I "zoomed in" I saw "good" people, compassionate, caring, seeking truth and the "bad" people - you know the type. But when I "zoomed out" it was all mixed up and became good. I don't know what this all means, but I thought I'd share.

Love to all.
Laura in CA

torus said...

Greetings! (torus here)

For me, the discussion of "God" is becoming somewhat moot. "moot-moot mootsie, goodbye! moot-moot mootsie, don't cry!"
Some other posts @ smoking mirrors recently really confirm the mootsiness. < can I say that?
The absurd verbal gerbil wheel of semantics...my god. With one poster openly admitting the failure (is it?) of language to describe this "God". For some reason he has to be some bad-ass mutha with a hankerin' fer some ass. Any ass will do. A child raping architect of filth.As well as the caress of a newborn & mother, the scent of lavender, your fondest dream, a 3-D Quentin Tarantino formed into a self-glorifying ouroboros endlessly consuming his own shit and regurgitating it. Whatever...it's fuckin nuts. & maybe the hole universe is going insane ala Chiappalone (except for him & his "viables" -pretentious cunt)He's gone to the Jack Van Impe school of "LEARN HOW TO PROPHESY WITHOUT BEING A DATE SETTER! With him, and of course many others, it's "soon". GREAT changes coming..."soon". I'm not looking for date-setters myself.Perhaps that in relative terms of time, we've only released spittle, let alone taken our first baby step towards the inevitable hell that will become darker,darker, and darker....until it can only become heavier, heavier, and heavier.
Can you not just live...a life? A LIFE! And then let it go? Is that so wrong? There's no karma or god overseeing whichever child is being abused, raped, or tortured at the moment. How could there be? (that's where fear often kicks in...because there IS A GOD!!) And why would you want to know, or semantically convert him into some as above/so below, cock-raping, ass-sucking, MousketeerIt's fear, the denial of death & the urge to some form of cosmic heroism that plagues...

"O son of Prtha, those who take shelter in Me, though they be of lower birth--women, vaisyas [merchants], as well as sudras [workers]--can approach the supreme destination."

Human, all too human.

Citizen Elle said...

Thank you for your open-hearted request for understanding and respect from the crowd here. You deserve no less. I just made a special prayer for your enduring fortitude and healthy continuance. I’m sure your invisible friends will continue to provide you with the best counsel available and know that you’ll stay tuned for further directives.
Gotta say, it’s been challenging to have observed over the years how many “folks” (both critical challengers & even the well intended advice givers) who either think they have sage wisdom to offer you or, that you owe them anything, when clearly, THEY DON”T KNOW & YOU DON”T OWE.
I’m not the only one of your readers who is CONSISTENTLY amazed at the synchronicity of not just the words, subjects, and references in your writings but, also of your circumstances. The particular “trend” you refer to here is so sad to hear for you, and it sits so close to home. I’m still healing the wounds (of why?) from my similarly resulting scenarios in Sedona, Italy & Portugal. And, like you, I have a 13 year relationship that sounds awfully similar to yours & Susanne’s that was brought to me by cosmic design. Lucky me, for sure.
There must be a reason for it all but it’s not at all obvious. Is it what I’m doing or what I’m not doing? There are those moments where I’ve perceived these incidents as setbacks, even as personal failure of sorts, but then I am brought to think of our good Mother after a momentous weather event where like the trees that lose some limbs, she is merely changed by it… better or worse don’t necessarily apply. It just is what it is… and the beat goes on…

Thank you again, Visible, for always being who you are… keepin it real and unreal – love it!
(((BIG HUG)))
from the deep
~~~ Elle~~~

Visible said...

First, to my good friend The Pope. Yes, I had a good time there, that is not specifically what I am referring to. I had a great time in various ways. Words are always a blind and they conceal as much as they reveal. I was referring only to certain elements of confusion that have attended each and every one of my trips. Please don't take any of this as a negative; had that been the case we would have discussed this already. For some reason we haven't been able to discuss anything yet, although you said you wanted to (grin). Meanwhile, I left a pair of brown sunglasses at your place in UK.

I'll be coming to UK after I return from here and staying with my friend Oldboy who has a recording studio where we are going to re-record my songs in a professional manner. He lives a little ways out of London so I hope to see you in that period.

Next, thank you all for the support, as you can imagine,

Visible said...

Rats, the comment published on it's own; anyway, as you can imagine, I have considered most of what got said here. I can't leave India right now, people are coming to see me. I can't not be here. My new place is great and the people renting to me are great so all should swim accordingly from here.

As for my invisible friends, they have been here for decades. This is no new thing. No doubt some things are being beamed at me and coming out of the lower astral but I would not be given the position I hold, nor the changes I go through if I could not handle them. I can be in no danger that I am not put in for the temporary purpose of demonstration. It just doesn't happen.

No one is actually waiting for me and that doesn't change the dynamic of my main situation. There's no harm or blame in any of this. People change and life forces transition. That is all it is. I am supposed to migrate to a new field of enterprise. That is all there is to it. I've seen it coming for awhile and it is independent of the players involved.

I'm supposed to be somewhere else soon. I don't know where that is but that is how it is and so I must embrace it. It's just a little trying on the side of unknowing.

Anonymous said...

pierre said...

I don't pray, per se, but you are often on my thoughts (my insignificant other). that's just the landscape in this virtual sphere.
maybe cue ELO "how's life on earth what is it worth?". when all is said and done, there is more, much more Hiratio. and there you go, (the Carpenters) ♫for all we know♫
another shitty day in paradise, deal the deal, face the dice. know the know.

ChewyBees said...

I can't speak to the exact reasons why others have expectations of you that are personal to them. I imagine though, that it is even in its darkest throes an attempt at clarity.

All of your blogs are a separate slice of the clarity pie. I guess people that visit here once, or multiple times, are all here for a reason: that you are a prophet of sorts for them.

Don't take that wrong, as prophets are often seen as the crazy man in the streets, baptizing strangers and exhorting the impending doom. You may have an element of that, but the reason I come here is that your message always carries that glorious element of hope.

Whenever I visit blogs that focus on the negative and can't accentuate a positive, my comments are in turn negative and I eventually make myself out to be a longwinded jag. It's not that I am ever trying to hurt people or their egos, it's always because the conversation was always one sided to begin with.

The comment boards on your blogs are fascinating, and I can see each post as a chance to reach you, and through you, reach a great many more people. If I read one of your writings, I read every comment. When I comment, I try to put forth my own experience and integrate the other comments, and if I can, some of your wisdom in the rhetoric.

Part of the burden of exposing yourself is that people will undoubtedly disagree and misconstrue what was written. You receive an even greater task because you have the grandeur of having written books, songs, and the like for some time. You are widely read, listened to and enjoyed in many forms and by many people.

Why you have not received the monetary wealth you so grandly deserve is beyond me, but it is obvious that you never approached any of it with that intent. Still, the expectation should exist, and with that expectation comes the ultimate burden of fame.

My wife and I often talk about how hard it would be to be truly 'famous', and how much a shell one's life would become. From that point on, everything one says in any capacity is analyzed, psychoanalyzed, dissected and marginalized all for the profit of the psychopaths that profit from such ilk ink. All of one's relationships become hollow and arranged coercement to keep the image of the famous idol alive and kicking.

You have a gem here. You have the captive minds of men (meaning male and female) wishing to be free, and desperately seeking an audience of true and like-minded souls. Bear with us, kind soul, and we will follow you to your ends of the earth.

Anonymous said...

Brother, only posted once in the last 5 yrs or so but read everything.. I am astounded anyone would want to abuse your good nature. yet.. I've used your experiences and wit/wisdom to shine the light on a path I could barely see when no one else could. You doing these writings was a resource for me grown way beyond what you might think. I am grateful I was led here so long ago. Take that to heart Vis. chris

Stephen Herbst said...

Greeting Sir Visible,

I am reminded of this:
If only
I could throw away
the urge
to trace my patterns
in your heart
I could really see you
David Brandon - Zen in the Art of Helping, Routledge & Kegan Paul 1976 pg. 47

People are very often unaware of this.
Namaste

Thomas said...

May all in your sphere realize your Divine Freedom to be EXACTLY as YOU PLEASE, Stamped and Approved by the Whole Universe. May all you touch realize that putting borders and expectations on you is primarily shackling their own minds. May all that touch you work towards purifying and increasing your higher energies and shining light on your lower energies. May you increasingly realize your true nature, happier happier and happier, freer freer freer!

May you feel strong, worthy and see the meaning in all things that you have experienced.

May the Wisest of the Wise guide you and
may all the hosts of angels, all the animal spirits, and all the elementals protect you and soothe you.

May all the muses sing sweet songs to you, and all negative entities leave your presence defeated and disillusioned. May your mind be unwaveringly clear, your heart filled with courage, and your bodys needs be met (+ a little comfort). May Inner Peace find you, whereever you go, whatever happens.

May your entire energy system be crystallized and strenghtened, and may all blockings be removed from you. May all who wish you bad be struck by confusion and hopelessness. May you recieve exactly what you need most for your continued growth, in careful measure and may the Seraphim prune you and watch over you.

May you experience no bumbs and starts, but all movements as smooth, even if intensely fast.

May Love find you, in every moment of your life, and may it be beautiful, scintillatingly mystifying, interesting and sweetly fragrant. May all who stand in your way be crushed and scattered to the wind.

May all your wishes come true and may your imagination roam free and unbridled. May you find Humor whereever you look, and may your stomach hurt from laughing. May you be in excellent company and may even the most strenous of feats leave you feeling rested and Light.

Gypsy said...

Vis, I read this post with great interest because many of us who read your blog, and who comment (which I rarely do), seem to be at a fork in the road: which path do we choose next?

That said, it feels more like a holding pattern for me lately, just hovering here until a runway clears, you know?

Have you or any of your readers looked into living in Cambodia? Here are the two biggest differences, from what I can gather, between Cambodia and Thailand: Cambodians don't despise farang, and Cambodia is 1/2 as expensive to live in.

Well 3 actually: visas and bureaucracy.

I suppose that's 4 but who's counting. The point I'm getting at is this one: I have a friend who spends 6 months a year in Southeast Asia and we're in regular touch while he is there. Now, actually.

He tells me that he survives very comfortably on $350/CAD per month. He's nearly blind and has no marketable skills to speak of but he has a disability pension so his monthly nut is covered either way however that said: you DO have marketable skills Vis.

You write prolificly. You can do that from anywhere on the planet, with or without electricity if need be.

You sing and play an instrument or 2: you can do that anywhere on the planet, with or without electricity if need be.

So can I, and as a matter of fact I have a few more international survival skills which I may or may not discuss here at a later date.

Bottom line: check into Cambodia.

I know of a little bar on a river in Cambodia whose farang owners are looking for another partner and the cost of that partnership is SQUADOOSH!!

The beer is cheap (I don't drink), the food is fresh, abundant and awesome, the locals are beautiful and cool, and the ex-pat, eco-tourist and back-packer population is constantly in flux.

What do you want to bet they'd love to listen to some live music by the great and wonderful Oz... er Vis?

And FRIENDS.

Communing and grooving together in that little Cambodian bar and the waterfall nearby.

Or making music and communing in any bar or pedestrian street or park anywhere, for that matter. (With the exception of places where this type of activity is fast becoming "illegal", ie: most North American cities and a lot of European centers as well...)

If you get my drift.

You're not getting any younger and neither am I Vis. Where do aging gypsies and non-conformists like us GO to grow old but not go it alone?

Something to chew on. Just thought I'd throw it out there to you and the gang. I have a lot more of this sort of stuff on my mind, if you want it.

Pictures too!

PS: You owe us SQUADOOSH! We owe YOU dude. Just trying to pay it forward here in any way I can.

Visible said...

A new Smoking Mirrors is up now-

Swimming out Beyond the Borders of Belief.

Visible said...

Thomas (unpublished comment). I don't know what to say. I am quite certain their is more than one Thomas around though.

Visible said...

Thomas (unpublished comment). I don't know what to say. I am quite certain their is more than one Thomas around though.

Anonymous said...


Entangled scraps of excrutiated manipulations dispersing through the confrontation of what never was,that fabricated the conditioning of abscondment,,,
Wandered by contemplated indications identifying the unidentitys instrument of separation,,
The illusioning self in displacements of mispurpose
That collapse into nowhere
By ones turn...
turning clusterings of Invigorated immediacy
magnifying embodiment,,,
Revolving sequences confiding in harmonic totality
Magnetising in the potency of pure truth...
Stirred along the winds of all cause
wandering Blossoms in patterns of unified eternity

Anonymous said...

by Goswami Abhay Charan Bhaktivedanta..

Adore thy feet my Master
And those who are devotees.
Rupa with elder and the other
Jiva Adwaita with societies.
Krishna Chaitanya is my Lord
Radha Krishna and Lalita accord.
Vishaka is there in the midst.
That's my prayer in the gist.

(2)

I wish my eyes flow in tears
As my heart Gauranga it hears
Hari thy name could I say
Nitaichand thy blessings may
Curb my desire to Lord it over,
Let my body in ecstacy shiver
Let my mind freed of matter
May I see Vrindaban scatter
May I know what Rupa is
Who unfolds to me the loving pair
Let my mind fixed up in them
Narottam shall not be in despair.

(3)

Glory to Radha and Krishna in Vrindaban
Equally to Govinda Gopinath and Madanmohan.
Shyamkunda Radhakunda hilly Goverdhan
Kalindi Jamuna river and forest Mahaban.
Keshighat Bansibat and dozens of garden
The places of pastimes by Nanda's son
Glory to Nanda Yasoda and cowherdsmen
Sridam and friends who follow amen.
Glory to Vrisvanu his wife beautiful
Glory to the fullmoon and the town of bull.
Glory to Gopiswar at Vrindaban fixed
Glory to the Brahmin who Krishna mixed.
Glory to Ramghat and Rohini's son
Glory to all who reside Vrindaban.
Glory to the Brahmin's wife and marmaid
Who in devotional service respects paid.
Glory to the arena where dance performed
Radha and Shyama who bamper stormed.
Glory to the zest of excellent mellow.
Paramourous feeling in-trance of kilo.
It's Krishnadas poet who chants
Lotus feet of Jahnava he remembers.

Ray B. said...

Vis:

Good to hear from you. You seem to be back 'on line'. On your 'nightmare': I seem to have inserted some kind of an 'out' point in my dreaming, such that if it gets too 'un-Ray' I automatically wake up. Many times, I find that those type are 'interference' while in the dream state. I have worked out ways to 'return to the sender' and do whatever is best at that end. I rarely have 'repeat performances' that way...

On the shared 'nightmare' with Suzanne: I take this as meaning that you two are still highly linked (in a good way). Enjoy this. This is one of the reasons that we came down to this planet, at all. When I am doing 'energy work' while Liz is sleeping, she cuddles up close when the vibe is positive, and thrusts herself away (while still asleep) if I am having to do some nasty 'clearing and cleaning' work. Very similar in principle to your experience. Enjoy your 'bond'. I suspect it is rare in our current society.

ChewyBees, January 16, 2013 6:40:00 AM :

That was a great posting. "You have a gem here. You have the captive minds of men (meaning male and female) wishing to be free, and desperately seeking an audience of true and like-minded souls." Profound. And true. Thanks! (Are you listening, Vis?)

Best Wishes,
Ray

Steven Gordon said...

When I first read of your pilgrimage to India, if I may call it that for lack of a better characterization, I thought, "oh goodie(ha!), now I can vicariously live this journey of yours along with the other souls who read your innate and intuitive thoughts and post comments here at your sites.
I instinctively believed that the Les who is really so much more would be visiting Shangri-La, having nonstop fun and constant joyous exhilaration, but as you indicated hasn't happened yet; this is real life, whatever that is.

And our envisioned reality is really only in our heads seeking the intention to become manifest.
I had come to the conclusion that was never a stumbling block for your interactions with the material, however, as with any massive transformation, the old precepts that got us this far are also evolving into more complicated algorithms that are simply just another one of those initiatory phases to put experience behind us.

Take the internal turmoil and transition it to an external explanation of the why of things beyond your control, and with the Divine ineffable, you and your invisible friends will materialize a continued greatness and a lasting effect on all who hear what you write.

We'll take the good with the bad, for that is the truth of reality in this dimension, and the balance will be in knowing the worse it gets, the better it will become. Peace, love, and understanding is only possible by a cosmic understanding that there is a God who desires all things good for everyone. We really love you Les, and our prayers for you will keep the wolves at bay!

David VanDevander said...

Baring your soul there brother. I have been through pretty much the same thing. I quit a good paying job two years ago, for various reasons, but because it was killing me and because of my belief. I'm living in the USA but moved out to the wilderness 15 years ago, because of my belief. Meanwhile, life goes on. Who would have known?

I told a discouraged visionary, years ago, that, just because you can't see any results from your efforts, doesn't mean that there aren't any results. Just remember that prophets and believers used to get sawed in half or burned at the stake. It goes with the job.

I struggle with belief. After many things seemed to be cosmically working out, I'm now just flapping in the breeze. I think -- hope -- that this is all preparation for moving on to the kingdom. Otherwise, I'm a deluded fool who should have gone for the gusto.

David VanDevander said...

Baring your soul there brother. I have been through pretty much the same thing. I quit a good paying job two years ago, for various reasons, but because it was killing me and because of my belief. I'm living in the USA but moved out to the wilderness 15 years ago, because of my belief. Meanwhile, life goes on. Who would have known?

I told a discouraged visionary, years ago, that, just because you can't see any results from your efforts, doesn't mean that there aren't any results. Just remember that prophets and believers used to get sawed in half or burned at the stake. It goes with the job.

I struggle with belief. After many things seemed to be cosmically working out, I'm now just flapping in the breeze. I think -- hope -- that this is all preparation for moving on to the kingdom. Otherwise, I'm a deluded fool who should have gone for the gusto.

Anonymous said...

LV, I think I hear you saying that India isn't what you needed. Correct? This idea has been on mind since I read of your intention to go there. I must say this: how could India be more than a place drowned in overpopulation? No, I haven't been in India. But I see the mass misery, and the human flotsam choking the land. How could you feel enough of India's soul to be satisfied? Anyplace that is overpopulated is drowned.

Dave
Baltimore

Visible said...

I didn't come here of my own accord. Somehow I knew I would be coming here but hadn't done anything about it myself. Then, out of the blue, a reader bought me a plane ticket and a stay at an upscale hotel for ten days. Once here, it seemed I should remain for a time because I kept being told that something was going to happen to me and that I was going to meet someone who would take me somewhere.

That's how it stands today and things have now evened out. I'm at work on some projects and mostly stay in the apartment and employ myself at them. Given what I am doing, I could do it anywhere, so here is as good as anywhere for the moment. Now, a friend is taking me to the Kumbha Mela in a couple of weeks and that is something I had an eye toward for half a dozen years (talk about overcrowded). Things happen for a reason and I don't always know what those reasons are.

Visible said...

A new Petri Dish is up now-

Django Unclean, X-Rated Hobbits and Reality TV Gurus.

est - ouest said...

-
Well,

Little out of character here,
I thought i would write in
proper english, for a change.

And of course, that's what I,
want to speak about, change.

Yes, it is always changing,
before our eyes, ears, nose
and throat.

Yes, well anyways,
you know what thereof, I speak.

There is absolutely nothing,
to hang on to, at any time,least of which, when it's time to go.

I as you, have no inside info,
except that which I gather myself, 'from my research.'

And all's i can see, is change.
-
I've been a rock, cold hard stone.

I've been the breeze, blowing alone.

I've been the ocean searching a shore.

i've been all that, and so much more.

I was in space, when man arrived.

I breathed into him, kept him alive.

When he walked the moon, i led him there.

When he made it back, it was
'cause I care.

Every single, hair on your head,
I sorted out, and took your dread.

You just didn't know, that's alright.

I'll still sing you asleep, every night.

If you can't hear me, listen within,

Went all the way out,
came back in, again.
-

Ray B. said...

Vis, January 18, 2013 6:52:00 AM :

"Once here, it seemed I should remain for a time because I kept being told that something was going to happen to me and that I was going to meet someone who would take me somewhere."

If I may share an insight or two I accumulated along the way:

In my humble opinion, your 'town time' is simple acclimatization to local energies. What awaits you is less in the town than in high-energy spots in/on the mountain. Most higher-level entities I have met do not like being 'in' the masses of humanity. They will do what is necessary, but it is a bit like walking through a sewer to them. (That is one reason I reside on the edge of a small town surrounded on three sides by forest.) Over the years, I have been much more likely to have a 'meeting' or 'sharing' with higher types in nature than in congested areas. If you 'put out' that you would like meet some higher (good) types and allow yourself to be 'pulled' around the mountain, you might end up with some interesting experiences (grin).

Also, I am trying to 'pre-dispose' myself such that I will be more naturally be drawn 'on' rather than 'back' upon my leaving this plane. A significant part of this has to do with completion of things I really wanted to do. They can be monumental or humble. (I ended up spending a year on the east coast just so I would eventually revisit a dearly-loved Delaware beach from my childhood. I had no idea such a depth of 'completion' feelings were tied to that area until I was physically there.) I keep the intent 'out there' for any remaining ones to be fulfilled (even unknown ones), and 'maneuvering' takes place in the background until I am where I need to be. (I ended up crewing on a beautiful sailing ship that way, with all sorts of unlikely twists going on to get me there.) I can tell now when one has been completed; there is an inner relaxation and sense of joyous fulfillment.

I have heard you talk of India with much feeling, and the Kumbha Mela in particular. I would not be surprised if similar 'completions' are underway for you. Enjoy.

Best Wishes,
Ray B.

Ren said...

Hi Vis-

Since you brought up dream stuff again...
Get yourself some black tourmaline. Rock, bracelet, pendant, whatever. Keep it on you, close or under your pillow when you sleep. (or all the time!) It will protect you and your energy field from negative influences and keep you grounded. It helps creative people have the ability to see the practical side of their endeavors. And will also help keep your spirits up, in spite of precarious or negative circumstances.
It seems to be working for me. Just my two cents..

Much love!

Anonymous said...

Hello Les, I really liked this article.
'I admit to confusion, some perplexity and uncertainty ...but fear is not something I recall dealing with'
Of course you are and have been a most fearless writer of the truth on the internet. As for the perplexity; most modern society's perplex me. It's the indigenous peoples of the world, those mainly untouched by modern society, that still poses true spirituality. The people you are amongst, at the moment, are in the modern world but have a spiritual past.
Your mountain is untouched and still has its spirituality it has always possessed - that's where the confusion comes in, the mixed messages from the people and the agelessness of the mountain both pulling at you.
'I've wanted to think and do believe that God protects me and it certainly appears to be true.'
My take on Gods protection is that He 'looks after me'. He protects me and guides me, yes but at times he 'smites' me.
Always when I wander off the path; unintentionally, unthinking and only a smidgen - He smites just enough to have me realise what is going on and only enough to correct my step.
I could go on commenting on your words but my head hurts when I start on spirituality - I love this article though – thanks.

Anonthy

neil said...

Esteban,,,lovely poem,had a lifting sensation to it,,,very strong,,,,,,neil

Alan, 20, Perth said...

Thanks for the read, its always lovely to hear more about you.

Love and best wishes,