Two for one day!
Dog Poet Transmitting.......
Dog Poet Transmitting.......
It has really gotten strange in this world. You can't say anything anymore without it being taken out of context, or amplified well beyond the intent of this writer. My feeling about all of this has less to do with the pressures and uncertainties of modern life and ever so much more to do with unavoidable changes coming upon us and being some thing(s) we are not intrinsically disposed to accommodating. We fear and resist change at most points and we are not open to accepting this. I know this to be true because it is true of me. As much as I seek change on a daily basis, there are parts of my subconscious that are opposed. Beneath the surface of our being is a huge sea of impulses and predilections of which most of us are only dimly aware. Anyone who has studied the effect of the mysterious ID and all those other misdiagnosed terms that are in the common parlance, knows that there is conditioning and there is also the unfortunate incontinence of the subconscious (how's that for a snappy definition?) as it breaks through thin barriers and the subterranean customs checkpoints of our inner self. Not a day goes by when we don't hear about some poor soul who did something awful or awfully embarrassing that they would never have done if they had been in their right mind at the time. These days, far too many of us are not in our right minds because the world we live in is dangerously out of balance and we have adjusted to this and continued to adjust to it, until we have adjusted ourselves into a synchronicity with the dangerous imbalance of the world we inhabit.
It is due to an almost unnoticeable, incremental press toward chaos that we find ourselves increasingly separated from both ourselves and each other. It has also come to where anything we say to one another, no matter how innocuous and well meaning, can be taken for something else, something other than what we intended and we are left at a loss to understand how and why this happened.
I come here most days, although you may not see the results every day, trying my best to speak from the heart with all of the sincerity and passion that I am capable of. This is the truth of me and I do my damnedest to be and do just that. I think 'most people' who come here believe this and I also believe this about most of the people who come here. I often yearn with a great hunger to be in a proximity where I can interact with the majority of you. Alas... we are separated by great distance in many cases and such is not to be. This is the point and purpose of the work that takes place here because it is only in virtual space that one can accomplish such a thing. Many times I have wished to see more of the wonderful people I met in London when I went there to speak at that conference. I only had the day and that was that. The river of life flowed onward and around the bend. The days pass, all too quickly it seems and I grow ever closer to my exit point, hoping that as I go I can do more good than harm by an ever larger percentage. I seek with a greater and greater intensity, to throw off the shackles of my blindness, ignorance and intolerance. There is within each of us (for the most part) such a great amount of programming. Some of that programming is from other lives. It is not an easy thing to shake but we go at it with a will, even though Lao Tzu, says, “let life ripen and fall, will is not the way at all.” (grin). It can get confusing; to do or not to do. To try or not try. Which is it? It seems that it is none of them all the time and some of them some of the time and being capable of flexibility and finesse is the key. It seems this can only be made possible by a clear and open channel to the intuition because although we certainly do not know in any comprehensive sense, our creator knows everything in every sense.
What does this tell us? It tells us that the key is to come into an ever more deep and continuous communication with our higher self. The key is to be transported by grace, or faith, or relentless industry; good works, a ceaseless meditative focus... whatever it takes... to come into a state of utter reliance on the ineffable and everything that happens to us in this life is directed into bringing us to this point, IF we are so inclined in the first place because... in times of the apocalypse, we are all being brought to the direct resolution of what we are in the totality of our being. Going up? Going down? Going sideways? We are all going in the direction of our hearts deepest intentions, even when we are woefully unaware of what that is. For some of us, regardless of our rough state, we are being led on the proper course due to grace. At some point we impressed the ineffable with something and the ineffable has never forgotten. We forget of course but the ineffable does not.
We have to shake the persistent anthropomorphism that plagues our existence. We consistently mistake the mind and intentions of the almighty with our own. We believe that the ineffable thinks and judges like we do. We believe the ineffable is just as unforgiving as we are, just as petty and impatient. This is simply not true. The truth is that the ineffable loves us more than we are capable of loving the ineffable back. The ineffable yearns for reunion with us far beyond our own yearning. In all things, the ineffable pursues us with a greater fervor than we are capable of and it is this that we are meant to surrender to, the divine impetus for resonance with the ineffable.
Guru Bawa once said that he was like a fisherman and we were all runaway fish (I am paraphrasing) snapping at every brightly colored thing and that he had set his hooks for us and once the hooks were embedded in our mouths we were caught and it didn't matter how frantically and powerfully we sought to swim away in the direction of our pedestrian pursuits, we were hooked and slowly, or quickly, depending on his mysterious purpose, as an agent of the ineffable, he will reel us in. He was speaking in that luminous intensity of his and I was fixed on everything he was saying and all of a sudden, I caught myself (no doubt he was responsible for this) and there I was with my mouth wide open just as if there were a hook in it and I was being irresistibly pulled forward toward him. It was, is, an unforgettable moment and in the moment of my discovery of what was taking place I realized that it had been going on for some time.
Later, down the road, when I was facing a sentence of life imprisonment on Maui, my friend Michael Green went to Bawa and told him about my situation. I should also point out that in my situation NO ONE had ever beaten such charges before. It was a slam dunk and yet I, with no money and a court appointed lawyer did just that. At the time, Bawa said to Michael, “Oh, don't worry, he'll be alright. He has just chosen another path.” AND... so it was. This is one of the beauties about a great master like Bawa. He understood that not all of us must be compelled to be forcibly shuttled on to a particular path. As we often maintain here, there are many paths up the mountain but once you have reached the top you can see all the ways down. Bawa once referred to himself as a traffic cop who stands at the crossroads of existence and who waves people in the various directions that their destiny is meant to go. “You go this way. You go that way.” etc.
I wish I had appreciated him more when he was materially with us. I was so reckless at the time. I thought I wanted to be performing recording artist. I distinctly remember standing in my apartment back in 1976 in Philadelphia and saying to myself, “I've got to rock and roll.” It was as if I were at a crossroads; whether to immerse myself in the day to day of the fellowship there or to follow my dream, which was not all that well formed and which displayed a great ignorance of the music industry and the mindset of those who run it. All I got as a result was a great deal of pain and suffering and these days my music is a side issue affair going nowhere at the same speed as the rest of me (grin). Well... I don't know that actually. Probably a lot more than I am aware of is going on and only faith, certitude and determination will take me through it all.
I told myself before I got here that I would give myself a year to see what was what here for me and I have done this and like some kind of strange clockwork, I find that circumstances have put me in a position to vacate where I am, exactly one year after arriving. I did nothing to bring it about. It happened completely independent of me. If anything I was as peaceful and diplomatic as possible but... when the ineffable has plans it is better that one does not have plans of their own. I suspect it is possible I could be almost anywhere after the New Year. Somehow the means to be wherever that is to be will materialize. I am confident of this, just as I am confident I will not be rendered homeless and destitute. The ineffable loves me as much as anyone and everything in this life is created to bring me, or any of us, into an awareness of this. It is fascinating to see to what a degree the ineffable micro manages our lives if we are cooperatively disposed toward it.
I want to say in closing that although I will occasionally say things that are not understood as I intended them to be or which offend some, it is never my intention to make such a thing happen but these things become unavoidable when dealing with a wide readership, which incorporates so many different perspectives and states of mind that can vary from moment to moment. It's all timing ultimately. Shave a few seconds, or an hour, or a day, here and there and the whole dynamic can change. Stop on your way somewhere and everything is altered to a lesser or greater degree. This is why a consistency of heart and mind is so important. Even if everything around you is changing, the power within is always greater than the appearances without. It might take some time to get to where this is understood and employed but... we have forever.
Life can be very mysterious. It is happening at so many levels and all of our thoughts and words and actions are like the ripples caused by a stone thrown into a lake. These ripples reach distant shores and they interact with other ripples and a large complexity comes out of all this interplay between the countless numbers of us. Deep within the heart of it all is a profound simplicity and this is the most difficult of it all to grasp and it is achieved by a letting go of everything superficial and a consistent focusing upon the one who lies within the deepest center of our being. Love and devotion; don't leave home without them.
Sunday's radio broadcast is here.