Dog Poet Transmitting.......
Greetings dear friends and welcome to a small sector of the Arcturian Brotherhood and the Sirius Cluster. Today we would like to talk about something that has not been discussed here before and that has to do with being realistic about our ambitions and aspirations. This is a critical awareness that is often not given the attention it deserves and ignoring it can be the gateway to all kinds of problems. These things happen incidentally and they happen intentionally and they happen for reasons beyond my understanding because my understanding is limited but let us consider all those yogis that wind up sleeping with their followers and all those Catholic pederast priests that violate the altar boys. Consider also the financial chicanery and outrageous claims made about new age teachers and sundry who often arrange for such claims to be made through their PR flacks.
Were any of them evil at inception? Possibly some of them were but most of the time they were just weak or deluded. Of course, any number of them got into the God Game because of the possibility of large sums of money waiting to be tagged and bagged or buried in the back yard. The delusions of followers can also be examples of mass hallucination. I find it hard to believe that such a mass of individuals would have bought into Rajneesh Osho's routine after the 99 Rolls Royce's and the flaming 55 gallon drums for condom disposal; legitimize casual sex and the world will beat a path to your door. Then there is all of this. Of course, canny hangers on like Anand Sheela show up. All kinds of things are going on in places you don't much hear about.
I don't want to bang on Rajneesh, (I'll leave that to people who can write articles like the last link) and I hear about it when I even discuss the inexplicable circumstances of that long running affair. When you read that latest link you see all kinds of things you probably never heard about before. It starts to look like something where you have to ask yourself; why did people stay around? How could they possibly have bought into it all? I am left with the idea of like attracts like. It was a harvesting of types that were all here for the purpose of sensory enjoyment and they found someone that laid it all out for them and delivered the necessary blueprints that made it all okay. Now the residue has their own upscale and thriving spiritual (cough, cough) amusement park. They even have their own currency, which I think is arranged so that you have to spend it all there. I was given the impression that once you convert your money into Osho money that's where it stays. If I am wrong about this feel free to correct me.
Here is one of the Osho spinoffs- a Tribe member of course- and here is a site where you can get readings on all kinds of gurus and wannabees. It makes you wonder when Jesus Christ only gets two icon rating. This site has been around for a long while.There are some that I venerate and you mostly know who they are and they mostly have ratings. Seems like I was once asked if I wanted to be listed there by someone who was promoting me to that effect but apparently I did not make the cut as my profile was not high enough. Heh heh. I also got bumped off of Wikipedia too.
Aright, let us return to the initial idea for this posting; not everyone is meant to be Brahmacharya or celibate and seeking to be when you are not equipped to be is going to cause you problems. Aspiring after what is not to be given you is also going to result in frustration and disappointment and that is why I counsel to accept yourself as you are but that, of course, may be based on discovering who you are. One has to give a deep consideration to the battles one has with themselves and whether they are equal to expectations they have of themselves which may be unrealistic. I think Paul said something about, I wish all men were like me but it is better to marry than to burn. That is paraphrasing surely but it is accurate I believe. There have been many high beings who have been engaged with an opposite number; Lahiri Mahasaya comes to mind.
We can get into all kinds of trouble when we do not recognize our own limitations and seek to live with them in the hope of grace descending. In an apocalypse it is all to easy to become a demonstration of what not to do and who not to be. I don't have an opinion on those mentioned and linked here today. I don't know the whole story, or whether they even had much choice in the matter.
These days I live in a state of solitude that can go on for days, unless I have to go somewhere and I am very soon back here again. It is quite something to be isolated with yourself and all the lengths of introspection that that provides. When I think of all the things I might have done and become, I am grateful for this respite and the general anonymity of my state. If we do not know who we are it is madness to go about fabricating ourselves into something we are not. It is foolish to presume that we are more than what we are when we do not even know what that is in the first place. What will be will be and the sooner we are able to come to terms with this, the sooner it will turn into what it already is.
Who are we? What are we? Once again I want to refer to the Lord's Prayer; “Our father who art in Heaven.” Our father... our heavenly father. Now... what does that make us? It should be obvious that we have a high destiny but we are mostly not arriving at it. Is this from our limitations? Is it fate? Is it weakness or some form of insecurity that does not believe in our own potential? What if we are reaching for more than is possible for us? Is that a reality or are we limitless in terms of what we are capable of? These are interesting questions. Should we be honest and recognize with clarity all the warts and wonders of our being? Should we count none of this as meaningful and see only that we are in flux and life extends before us in infinite potential? I wonder about these things.
Many times I have given myself with great industry to the pursuit of the ineffable and steadfast discipline in my being and many times I have been driven off the rails by mysterious means and I have yet to discover if this was caused by weaknesses and imperfections in my being or some cosmic imperative that insisted I go off course for some purpose of demonstration. This has happened so many times that I am mostly convinced that the universe is trying to tell me something. Have I been seeking to reach beyond what is possible or allowable for me? Is the very idea of striving wrong and should I simply accept that I am what I am and that what will be will be? Is it an effort of the mind, or the heart or is it simply recognition of the mind and heart? One of them needs to be stilled and one of them needs to be energized. I don't know and as I clearly remember, this is what my unnamed teacher said more than anything else in the brief time I was with him; “I don't know.” I am thinking that it is all contained in those portions that I remember; “Everything is under control, take the reins.” This seems to say, enough of striving to be more. Accept yourself as you are and as an extension of the almighty and simply exist within that awareness and let life proceed as it will, adjusting as you must.
If you refuse to admit that you have weak ankles and you insist on running over uneven ground you are going to pay for it. If your night vision is bad and you insist on moving at a pace greater than what you can be in command of according to the acuity of your perceptions, you are going to pay for it. I once said to Guru Bawa that I wanted to attain at all costs and he said to me, “You should be careful not to scrub the pot so hard that you break it.” Oh I have been filled will too much zeal on occasion and I have paid the price.
I suspect it is different for all of us. Some of us are meant to strive and some of us are not. Some of us will have an easier time of it and some will not. Each case is unique and that is why the effort at self discovery is so important but it can still be so hard to grasp what is required. One runs into a wall over and over. Should one cease? Perhaps it is one's fortitude that is being tested and one must run into that wall until the wall crumbles or disappears. Perhaps one is rather being told not to run into walls. It is at this point that the intuition and the inner voice (same thing) become so critically important. You must develop that ear of listening so that there is less wasted effort. There is so much wasted effort in life. Only lately have I come to understand how blind I am and how impulsive regardless of that. Somehow I came to believe that even reckless action at great personal cost was better than doing nothing. It appears that quite the reverse is true for me. It may not be so for you and that is why we cannot tell others how to be based on our own understandings because that might not apply at a wider extent. Doing nothing does not mean doing nothing. It might mean doing what you do and leaving all those other concerns in more competent hands. Do what it has been given to you to do and leave every other consideration in the hands of the ineffable. This is how it seems to me when it comes to me.
As is sometimes the case here, we find ourselves talking all around something that we just can't seem to speak to directly and we can only hope that the reader will intuit that somehow because we can only go as far as our limitations will allow.